Soul Motion: Miracle Mind
With the practice of simultaneously understanding both figure and field, students of Soul Motion are coached in the ways of seeing and grasping the connectivity of dancers and space. We become workers of miracles and shape-shifters, affecting circumstances within and outside by answering the call to clear thought, open heart, and focused attention; we shape life and ourselves.

Vinn's Journal

5/1/2008

Old man indecision is rapping at my door. I will answer and I have a few words to address. Indecision, I know more about vacillation than should be permitted any one human being. Throughout my life I have been, on far too many occasions, standing in the middle of a decision and wavering so as not to provoke anyone who might differ with me or, g*d forbid, challenge me.

I am a small child, helpless and lost in a department store aisle scurrying along panicked and unable to see clearly over the walls that define and confine me. I become locked in a tunnel vision of myopic proportions and cannot see the total circumference of my destiny. I know what is down the line right in front of me, yet I have no clue as to the surrounding texture.

It is all a matter of perspective as to what triggers me; frozen in place courting the ground underneath, I know that the fear of error of being wrong of not having the right answer in the right timing plays a big role.

Big deal, I am wrong! So what if I did not have the correct response in the time frame being pushed on me. Who cares if the perfect solution is not spread out on the lab table before me?

What if the knot of not knowing could be untied from many angles? What if I could look to the lightness of my being and I could step back and envision a wider perspective throughout any ordeal? Replace jangle with joy. Replace suppression with spark.

Today I am looking at my indecision as a cool splash of water that keeps me refreshed, alert, and vibrant in not knowing. Today I shift the paradigm of pause to power and acknowledge this as a sign of strength. I am flexing the muscle of deep wisdom and knowing when to hold them and when to fold them. Today I will turn on its' head the meaning of being well prepared, of having all the ducks lined up in a row. Today my ducks will bobble and bounce randomly to the whims of waves that are fleeting and fueled by the winds of wonder, discovery, and awe.

I am retooling this mind machine to perceive each and every person of such worthiness that I will linger more in the space of curiosity. I am restructuring the foundation of rapid response and replacing it with regal relaxation.

I am announcing today my rejoicing in the ignorance of the unknown, of being empty, devoid of immediate answer. I don't care if things are not all tied up neatly and summations impeccable. "I don't know, let me get back to you", has become my new beacon of deliverance for a tranquil mind and relaxed body. I will not shy away from blank stares and vapid facial expressions, my own or others'.

I will use this new view of indecision as deep understanding for the things inexpressible and inexplicable. I will use this new view as a teaching in the arenas of mystery, space, silence, and stillness, all components of a soul in motion and guidelines for this dancer of the everyday dance.

Travel well vinn

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