Vinn's Journal
3/1/2005 |
Collecting my thoughts is a useful exercise in uselessness! How many times have I received not even a measure of comfort by struggling with mind? When will I get it? Perhaps this moment as the letters appear on the screen before me and as you read them, you and I are able to embody the truth of giving up attaining a measure of freedom through collecting.
This is a dance worth practicing. This is a dance of the false step and the shuffle slide. This is a dance that arises from no thing. This is the Pause power of silence and stillness which makes my day to day dance resound with the flavor and favor of the one which connects.
Increasingly I stumble into the place of surrender and gratitude as a salve for what ails. Visions of those who I am anger with visit and the paralysis in my body becomes unbearable. To what end do I hold this anger and resentment? As a supreme teacher suggests, “Do you wish to be happy, or to be right?”
Well then, the dance benefits me as I let go of the struggle to perform tricks and tantalizing treats and give in to the movement moment. I remember to quit doing the dance of history and allow the dance of mystery to seep out from my bones, my blood, and my body.
So too, in my everyday dance as I enter and re-enter events, situations, and conditions which scream to me to play it safe and play it the way it figures and play it the way it soothes and placates.
I am learning to trust no thing, both in my ritual dance and my everyday dance!
Be well
Within
Love
vinn